this is it!

So...
This is it?
This high and rush?
The lack of sleep?
And cheeks in blush?
Being lost at words?
Grasping for air?
Meanwhile, pretending I don't care?
Yes...
High on life.
Without the dope.
I sharpened the knife
To kill all hope.
For, once again,
I realize: the peace within -
The Most valued prize.

West L.A. Autumn.

Sister.

Moon.
I love to hear Your stories.
May be soon
I will have no more worries.
Your Light
Keeps shining bright through darkness of a night.
My flight I  will continue.
Yes, I'm wrong to be so restless.
And I no longer want to fight...

Screaming so loud. Being so proud.
What is the reason for all?
Passion. Obsession. Denial. Regression.
All perfect conditions to fall.

Love was my power. Fragile as a flower.
Misunderstood and confused.
Longed for connection. Reached for perfection.
Instead of acceptance - refused.

Sad, but forgiven. Wiped out, but still driven.
This pause could be sure the end.
No need for excuses, more pain or abuses.
As long as the moon is my friend.

Hello.

I'll always remember Your kindness,
It comes from such pure huge heart.
Remember, I'm simple and mindless.
Even though, one thinks I am smart.
Forgive me, at times I am desperate,
Confused, angry, wild, and lost...
My heart and my mind are separate.
They both operate at great cost.
Let go of all that's still hurting.
Regret - the biggest sin out of all.
I play no more games, nor I'm flirting.
I'll answer the phone when You call.


Guru Singh's class always inspiring. Thank You, teacher.

The end.

Scared, irritated, confused, and upset.
Mouthful of sorrow, bitter tears, and regret.
Choices, I've made, haven't served me so far -
Life is not easy for a lonely, dim star.

They say we design our journey with mind...
I've always been loving, full of care, and kind
To all, who have crossed my path on the way.
I'm begging for... one... happy, wonderful day.

My very last breath can be taken each moment.
Don't care for Your pity through a comforting comment.
I guess, my desire is to simply inspire
The rest to live life with thier hearts full of fire.

Dear mommy.

Dear mommy, happy birthday!
I feel so lucky on this Thursday
To be Your daughter... have Your back.
Sometimes I am a major pain in neck.
I always want to make You happy.
Just like You do...
We both are snappy.
Sometimes we aren't simple - Fact.
I do respect Your word and act.
You teach me strength, pure love, and light.
You are my magic and delight. ♡
You are best friend, the one who's there:
You always listen, always care.
Give best advice that comes from love.
You are my angel from above.
I wish You more exciting moments
Be filled with love, pure joy, and content
That makes You feel the way You are -
A brilliant, wise, and stunning star. ☆
I wish I gave You the whole world.
Your heart is priceless.
Not like gold.

Unnamed.

Fame is lame
And only love is real
Stop playing that stupid game
When You deny what You truly feel.
In this world of diversity
Filled with fear, not generosity,
All we do is try to pretend
That our limits have no end.
All the same, we try to hide
Real feelings while swallowing pride,
Looking for approval,
Desperate, in néed for praise.
Being lost in duality.
We whipe clean our true feelings...
No more: Delete. Erase.
Fall asleep with fear
Wake up with the eyes wide shot.
It has been so clear -
We keep on loosing blood
Of innocence and beauty
That we can not replace.
Who will carry this heavy duty
And produce next beautiful race?
Based on moral senses that unite us all.
Humans, please, I beg You,
Its a wake-up call!
Look at all the nations:
Madness, dressed in white.
Act with kind patience people,
Stop the stupid fight!



Los Gatos. Another one is gone. Sad.

Happy birthday wonder child.

Today we gladly celebrate
The fact that it is NOT too late
To start Your journey from beginning.
You hit some strikes in every inning.
Now You are back at square one.
So far, You had a lot of fun.
You proudly enjoyed the moments
That brought some tears, frowns, comments;
Always aware what's best for You...
Now You are sensing other clue:
This life is more than You imagined,
It's nothing else, but pure magic,
Where all desires get fulfilled.
There is no place for shame and guilt
For every moment is a present
And every person is a God-sent,
So we can learn our lessons well.
Stop wasting time, don't cry, or dwell
In pain, that's always there to find.
You are so loving, pure, kind.
Wake up and celebrate Your life.
You are a gift! Let go of strife.
Enjoy it all. You've earned the right
To be Your best - unique and bright.
You're greatly loved. You have control.
Go, soar with blessings.
Play Your role.



Louisiana.
It is a rainy day today, and we all are getting a little bit older...