Self-reflection.

One step forward. Two steps back. 

I'm exhausted. What the heck?

Same old story. Same result.

I belong to my own cult.

Madness. Sadness. Wish for change. 

When things better, I feel strange.

Vicious cycles - that's my life. 

Not a lover, girlfriend, wife...

Played these roles.
It's in the past.

Didn't work - they didn't last.

Now I'm learning from mistakes.

How much time does growing take?!

Must admit: it's very hard

To work on healing broken heart.

Much resistance shows up.

Old addictions hard to stop...

Yoga - my new-found faith.

Works on soul like a lathe.

Dedication is the key!

Must commit - it sets me free.

No more sick-leaves, times for rest.

It's my challenge, new life's test.

Wake up call from same old dream.

I can do it - sense within...

Time to change.

I'm nothing else, but Your reflection.
There is invisible connection between us all.
It's hard to see when ego-driven mind rules.
It serves no purpose and simply pulls
Us all apart...
It's time to start become much more aware.
By being selfish, we don't care
Of one another being well.
Therefore, it's hard for us to stay united.
Yet, souls become much more excited
When given chance meet heart to heart.
And now its time for us to start
To see ourselves reflect in others.
I am myself, my sisters, brothers,
I am a part of him and her...
It is the way that I prefer
To live my life.
For I can see:
What's wrong with me - will set You free.

Inspired

If You were mine,
I'd let You shine,
And be Yourself.
There are no worries.
No conditions.
You are loved.
There is no jealousy involved.
I'll let You do whatever...
When You are free,
But choose to be with me,
We have that special connection
With joy and love, respect, protection,
With simple ease.
I'm here to please
And also learn what pleasure means...
I'm always here...
I so want to hear
All that You ever have to say.
You're free to go.
But I prefer You stay.
At least, until tomorrow...


February 5. I know where this is going... Hollywood.