The beauty of life.

I wonder...
When this thunder
Will quiet in my heart?
Has always been so damaged,
Somehow, from the start.

My path was dark and violent,
Was bitter at the core.
The moment I went silent,
Decided: no more.

I refuse an abuse,
And I search for The Light.
Before was a victim.
Now ready to fight.

My personal demons
Are always alert.
They guide me trough mad
And incredible hurt.

I seek only goodness
Inside every heart.
I'm grateful, forgiving,
Respectful, and smart.

Within every moment
I'm giving my best.
I know: all that happened,
Was only a test. 

New beginnings.

There are no words to describe what I feel.
Not sure, if I'm dreaming.
It doesn't feel real.
I'm both - elevated and touching the ground.
I knew that my love would come back around.
Incredible gift, You body and soul.
With You, I am stable, while loosing control.
It is new beginning and also the end
Of living with sorrow, while playing pretend.
No matter what was.
No matter what will.
I'm very in present.
Know love - is a skill.

Come with me.

You say You are scared.
And so am I.
Together, we stronger.
Up high we can fly.
The sky is off limits
For souls that are free.
Stop judging, pretending,
Let go, simply be.
Accept Your own flow,
Life is a beautiful gift.
Together we'll grow,
Share joy, and uplift.
I'm here to support You
With care and love.
I hope You protect me
From beneath and above...

Better together.

I'll never forget our very first kiss.
That wonderful feeling of joy, pure bliss.
You give me so much.
I can not explain...
I love inner beauty, kind heart, clever brain.
You always surprise me.
Again and again.
Through colorful reachness,
That's hard to obtain.
So wise for Your age,
So strong from within...
This life - our stage.
Together we'll win. 

My hero.

My beautiful dream...
So real, so Devine,
So sweet and so tender,
Where I'm Yours.
You are mine.
I gift You my body.
My heart.
And my soul...
In total surrender,
I'm loosing control.
I know You can manage
My crazy and lust.
You've got enough courage.
I don't doubt, I trust.

I do.

Possible ligit confusion
Might have risen from illusion
That we both woke up in love...

We followed calling from above,
That promised nothing else, but healing.
Through deep, intense, exciting feeling
Of mutual care, love, and lust...

Appreciate, respect, and trust
We both agreed upon receiving.
And truth be told - if one's believing,
While making choice without deceiving,
Self first, and others all along -
No need to worry.
Life is long.

Love's all we need to fight the fear
Of promises that weren't so clear,
Of pain, frustration from the past,
Or insecurities that last,
Or boredom, that may rise in future...

But when desire to grow is mutual,
It simply never is the case.
If next to You that smiling face
Reminding You of love and care,
One morning both agreed to share...

Like that -
No questions, no concerns, no fears;
And both indulge in happy tears,
While holding hands and kissing lips.
Love IS the answer.

We won't miss quick fixes, drugs, Addictions, sorrow -
They are the past.
Not one tomorrow
Will bring a hope for "Brand New Day."

We've got reach other.
Now.
Today.

And all I want and need is You.
I am afraid no longer.
You?



Highway 5 North. 

Freedom of choice.

You think I need You? You are wrong.
Remember - life is very long.
And I am insecure no longer. 
If anything, I grow stronger
With each and every single day.
You are a man, You lead the way,
And I will follow Your direction.
I'm not at all intimidated by rejection,
When You decide to move alone.
I'm grateful for the love You've shown.
And truth is: I still want You, dear.
Despite the madness and the fear
That creeps inside my head at night...
If You are willing, we shall fight.
With love - the only way of living.
Stay kind, truthful, gentle, giving. 
Remember - that is all life is.
We'll gain our goodness, grace, and bliss.
Don't be upset by past - it's done.
I'm here. Waiting. I'm not gone.

Los Angeles. I love You, life. 

Listen.

My wonderful and loving friend,
You know I am no longer twenty.
Your new beginning is my near end.
I've lived, I've loved and suffered plenty.
You have to make a few mistakes...
You'll learn to deal with Your emotions.
You'll know, when to raise Your stakes
And turn Your passion to devotion.
Regardless, what You think You know,
You'll feel You're lost. Most of the time.
Use inner compass, move along with flow,
And treat each moment as Your prime.
Treat body as Your sacred temple.
It gets used up, when we are thinking less.
Be kind to others, set a good example.
Love madly-goodly and don't stress.
I wish You never know sorrow
And make decisions from the heart.
Don't dwell on yesterday or what will come tomorrow,
Stay in the present. Please, be smart.




Hollywood. Life as we know it.