Не права.

Дарю тебе свою любовь,
Ухмылкам близких удивляясь.
Ты за меня пролил бы кровь
И жизнь отдал бы, не стесняясь.

Но почему так нелегко
Нам вместе выстроить удачу?
Кусаю ногти, как на зло,
Курю, не сплю, и снова плачу.

Ты так хотел, чтоб все сошлось,
В мечтах своих всегда летая,
Я видела тебя насквозь,
Поддержку ярко выражая...

Ты - ветер, ты - огонь, ты - страсть;
Ничто тебя не остановит.
Не дай же сам себе упасть.
Твой дух любую гору сломит.

11  July 2014

No regrets.

When You are truly done,
Please, don't look back.
What's done is done...
The only way to go is forward.

And even if all You can see is black,
Keep pushing through -
The light will soon come in and onward.

The answers...
They will come in time.
There is a deeper meaning
Behind every kind of madness.
The only thing I urge: commit no crime.
Cause if You do,
It'll only push You deeper into sadness.

Simplicity of life is such:
(Sometimes it's easy to forget)
Do goodness, be in love so much,
That when Your time is up,
And You're looking back,
There is nothing there to regret.


14 July 2014

About love

So much worry....
Always in hurry.
Endless potential.
Wait, love is essential?
Pushing and pulling,
Controlling and yelling.
Why all the madness?
And tonsils are swelling...
We wanted what's better
And, yet, we got zero.
For You I was princess,
You - always my hero.
What now?
New beginnings.
New people and places.
I'd give so much for familiar faces!
Where is the lesson?
What changes with timing?...
The need to stay loving,
Be loved, to keep smiling.
The only one truth I am able to cherish:
Hold on to Your love,
One day it can perish...

14 July 2014

Your choice

We've gone through so much before,
It's silly to deny there was connection.
Who knows if we're due for more -
We never wanted the perfection...

No matter, how hard it hurt,
Regardless what had happened after,
For me the past is nothing, but a blur,
I still believe in happy ever after.

To wake up to Your smell and touch,
To see the ocean in those blue eyes of Yours...
I must be crazy, but in love so much,
No matter what they say, I'm Yours.

7 July 2014

Work with me.

My dear, loving, painful heart,
That's enough. Now You can stop.
No more tears, pain, or ache -
Can't afford for You to break.

You've been loving, sweet, and gentle,
So much goodness You could handle.
Keep on beating, hurt no more.
I saw You do it once before.

Much more joy You will produce.
Please, I beg You, don't refuse!
Grow much stronger every night.
Once again we gonna fight.

13 August 2014

Cheer up

The pain inside will soon be no longer.
The sun will share its lovely rays again.
Your love for life does grow so much stronger,
When all alone You're crying in the rain.

No matter, how much You have been hurting,
Or how unfair others treated You;
Emotions can be very disconcerting -
It's up to You to manage to get through.

That bird that sits on branch of tree in silence
Is not afraid of branch to break apart,
Cause truth within, that perfect inner-guidance
Reminds it: "the wings are there, ready to depart."

My friend, cheer up,
Don't be afraid of powerful emotion.
Use it as tool, not weapon against all.
Seek joy, compassion, balance and devotion,
Aim for success, don't think You'll ever fall.

J, You inspire me to be better. Every day. Every minute. Every moment. Thank You.

2 August 2014

Где ты?

У каждого своя дорога.
Я понимаю, как непросто жить,
Когда в душе живет одна тревога
И сердце отрекается любить.

Как в скачке, с сумасшедшей силой,
Спешу опередить саму себя.
И все вокруг, вдруг, мне кажется унылым.
Сегодня не хватает лишь тебя.

Когда у нас все поменялось?
Зачем так больно ударял?
Я слез своих ни капли не стеснялась.
А ты себя ни раз не извинял...

Живу, дышу, плыву я по течению,
День за другим мечтая о тебе.
Но не могу отдаться я другому увлечению -
Любовь к тебе сжигает сердце мне.

12 July 2014

Enough.

And why am I The one
To always give a fuck?
Through all that I have shared
And all that I have done???

With all my love and care...
I know - Life's unfair.
Most of the time, to most of us.
But I don't care!

I don't pretend to be so perfect
Or so damn worthy.
But, Yes, it is not fair!
For luck is never on my side.

I tried to commit a suicide;
It hurt too much to keep on living...

And, yet, I do.
I keep on giving
All that I've got,
No more or less...

I do believe in my success.
I don't expect for You to care.

All I ever wanted - You.
Yes, You to share a moment, a touch, a kiss, a glance...
I got it all.
I had a chance.

Now - time to go.
Lights are off.
Don't call or text.
Don't piss me off!