Confused.

Sometimes, I want to feel like woman:
Fragile, forgetful, sensitive, and weak,
To be a vulnerable, imperfect, real human,
And not an independent, iron, robot freak.

And other times, I want to be a man:
Be in control, responsible, with a solid plan,
Who is balanced, logical, and clear.
The one all can rely on, without a doubt or fear.

At times, I feel like being a mother:
Providing care and joy. I want to smother
Another human being with my love.
I want to be a mother, caregiver, dove.

But, all the time, I am a lover.
It's my addiction, from which I won't recover.
No matter, who, or when, or where:
I have to love, just like I have to breathe fresh air...

Sadness. Madness. Tears. Life.

Hollwood.

May 13th  2015

It works.

Sometimes it's good to loose control
Of feelings, mind and emotions. 
Sit back and play third person's role
Observing challenges, commotions.
To see and, simply, not react,
To rise above all situations,
Look for solutions, based on fact:
There are no real limitations.
It's up to You to make a choice
To change the habits You've created.
Try listening to inner voice,
One day You will be liberated.




Hollywood. Not feeling my best lately...
May 13, 2015

Life happens.

We drifting slowly apart.

Life happens:
We are nothing more, but strangers, 
From the start,
Who bumped, by chance, into each other.
It wasn't love, but friendship, rather.
And every story has its end.
I don't expect You play-pretend
To care for me or our connection.
There is no single expectation
To hear from You, in any way.
It doesn't hurt me. I'm okay.

Blessed Sunday. Hollywood.

May 10 2015

About Success.

What is success?

Your commitment to You,

Your choices, Your words, Your ideas.
Regardless, what others want You to do,
You stick to Your own ideals.

The crowd will tell You: go left, now turn right,

Increasing Your doubt and fears.

You must never worry, protest, start a fight,

Become insecure, shed tears...

You succeed only then,

When You know who You are,

Never-mind all other's opinions.

Embrace Your divinity, shine like a star,

No matter - You're broke or have millions...

So LA. May 9 2015

About a relationship that didn't work out...

Alright, I get it. You can stop

Pretending You don't even care.
The tables turned. My Ace is up.
I'm leaving You. It's only fare.

I don't believe we wasted time,
Chasing a dream and, then, each other.
Forgiving You - my biggest crime.
Apologies or not - why bother?..

Another painful lesson learned.
Good bye. I need some space. Be kind.
You'll find love... Come on, don't cry.
Be careful - sometimes it's blind.

Saturday. Hi.

Hollywood. May 8 2015

Liberated.

One day I'll share my whole story,
For inspiration, not for glory.
Sometimes it's hard to tell the truth:
We want to sound ideal and smooth.
But that's not interest of mine.
I do not mind to cross the line
That borders with a common sense:
Cause my mistakes are my true essence.
I want to show - it's okay
To be Yourself, it's not foul play.
The moment You accept Yourself,
Without the judgment, looking for excuses,
You'll stop the agony of hell,
Your heart will heal, along with bruises.
It's powerful to own Your truth,
Not be afraid of looks from other.
Accept it all, embrace Your sooth,
Become Your own loving mother.
With unconditional support and open heart,
Encouraging and less abusive,
Acknowledging that life is art
And every one of us exclusive.
Don't be afraid, remove the masks,
Engage in self-appreciation,
Forgive Yourself, move on, relax,
Make freedom final destination.

Thank You, Hollywood drunks, for keeping me awake, so I can write...

Hollywood. 3 a.m. May 9 2015

Just Dance.

I am only a drop in this ocean of love:

It is all around me: beneath and above. 

Always protected by care and light. 

There is nothing to fear, nothing to fight.

Emotional freedom, pure joy, and true bliss:

All that we, humans, long for and miss...

Resistance and fear block our way.

 We deal with much stress. No longer we play.

Life is a beautiful, colorful dance.

Move to the beat of Your heart in a trance.

Create Your own magic, wherever You go.

Life will adjust to Your rhythm and flow.

Sharing Your love - is most wonderful gift.

Your personal dance will inspire and uplift.

Together we are exploring this wraith.

Choose to be love, trust in goodness, have faith.

Loving the flow. Hollywood. May 8 2015

Just Dance.

I am only a drop in this ocean of love:

It is all around me: beneath and above. 

Always protected by care and light. 

There is nothing to fear, nothing to fight.

Emotional freedom, pure joy, and true bliss:

All that we, humans, long for and miss...

Resistance and fear block our way.

We deal with much stress. No longer we play.

Life is a beautiful, colorful dance.

Move to the beat of Your heart in a trance.

Create Your own magic, wherever You go.

Life will adjust to Your rhythm and flow.

Sharing Your love - is most wonderful gift.

Your personal dance will inspire and uplift.

Together we are exploring this wraith.

Choose to be love, trust in goodness, have faith.

Loving the flow. Hollywood. May 8 2015

About True Love.

You left me with "I love us" line. 
And I forgot to give You mine. 
Love is unspoken silent prayer,
That which resides in deepest layer
Of the subconscious layer of mind.
How grateful I, for I could find
This true connection between us.
Nothing to do with sex or lust -
Pure joy of knowing each other,
Respect in recognizing other.
No words are needed: You are me.
No separation: We are We.




I knew it! Hollywood. May 8 2015