Why?

You are gone.
Oh, what a waste.
You are no more.
All hopes erased.
You chose to die.
Our last "good-bye"
Was way to casual for the occasion.
You wouldn't give in to my suasion...
Oh, what a pity.
You always were
So bold and gritty.
No force could stop You.
You were above all laws of nature,
Moved by love,
Seeking for danger,
All reasons shoved...
You were, my darling, dearly loved.
What can I say?
You chose to live Your this way.
Not best example for the rest.
Your life was nothing, but a test.
My heart is bleeding for the loss.
You taught me how to be The Boss,
To take control and be in charge,
To worry less and live life large.
I miss the laughter from nowhere
That You and I much loved to share.
I miss Your smile and Your touch.
My God, I love You sooooo much...

We are here on a mission. Can't judge. Even when we don't understand each others' choices...

Really?

How impossible, hurtful and cruel....
Why entertain the fire with fuel?
Testing a body on a dangerous quest.
I'll never believe You gave it Your best.

Emotions, commotions, fears and tears.
Vicious old cycles years after years.
Cheating the system with quick easy ways.
How is the misery of a blinding craze?

So much potential wasted for good.
"In agony burning" - a usual mood.
Was there hope? Or anything real?
How much effort was put into heal?

Words have no meaning, but actions - they do.
Mind can change all... Feelings do too.
What do You want? I've been asking same thing.

You are so stubborn. One wing broken.
You will win...




It's cooler today. Hollywood is wrapped in a blanket made of haze. Autumn...

The things You do.

You've shown me heaven,
You took me to hell.
Which one was which
I could never tell.

You showered me with kisses
You bathed me in love
Your knife never misses
Your tenderness's rough.

It's hard to forgive You
And hard to forget.
I chose to believe You....
Therefore - no regret.



Back in Hollywood. Where I belong.